Budgier, i'm so sorry to hear about Poofy, especially after reading about Duke just a few days ago.
Hang in there. I know it's going to be difficult. These things happen, unfortunately, and you weren't to know. It could have happened to anyone.
"Some say they don't believe that Angels can be seen or heard. What a shame such blindness, what a pity such deafness, when the Song of Songs abounds and heaven's flyers are all around, only thinly disguised... as birds" - Author unknown