I have been thinking about what I wanted to write all day today. And now that I have the chance to, I've realized I can not articulate exactly what I want to say without going on several tangents. So if this goes on, please forgive me.
As many of you know, my babygirl ,Starla, passed away from cancer almost a year ago. (It will be a year in September) and about 4 months after that, my beloved Danny deteriorated very quickly and died of cancer before we had a chance to understand what was going on, much less, say goodbye.
For awhile, It's just been Paulie (8) and Aqua (6). They have grown to be very close and somewhat distant from me, which is understandable, they were mourning. Now, I am being faced with the same situation that my last two babies had: Cancer. Now, it hasn't been confirmed by a vet, but I felt it at the pit of my stomach when I touched the underside of Paulie's belly and felt a bump in the same exact spot
as Starla. At first, I didn't think much of it, since Paulie has always been fluffier than the rest, It didn't--....who am I kidding. I didn't want to accept that this nightmare, this plague would ail my Paulie as well.
As the days progressed I noticed the same behaviors that Starla exhibited: the constant scratching with her feet and preening of her lower belly, the fluffed up appearance, the weird head movements that made it look like she had something stuck in her throat, and lastly, the big bump on her underside. It's been hard to see her, so unaware of what's going on, she just knows that there's a bump on her belly that is bothering her. Because other than this, she is hopping around and eating/drinking like normal. But as many bird owners know, they hide their illness until it's too late. And I think it's this fact that makes it so hard for me to accept that my little yellow bird, my Paulina, will be fading away little by little.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to be grim, but it's reality. For now I'm trying to not think about it, at least until she goes to the vet on Monday. For now I will love her as I always have, and spoil her and Aqua. *sigh*...I hate this part, so, so much. How is it possible that these creatures, although we do not share the same language, can make their homes so deep in our heart and soul?
In the midst of this, I made a startling observation, that might help you guys, or any other bird owners:
On Christmas Eve 2014, I found Starla at the bottom of her cage, puffed up, falling over and cold. I immediately took her out, held her and within a matter of minutes, she shot up, and flew around my room. She was acting normal again. So as concerned as I was, I let it slip to the back of my mind.
3 months later, she developed an Upper Respiratory Illness. I took her to the vet, he gave her antibiotics and within a week she was better again...until she wasn't. 2 months later I noticed the bump because she kept scratching at it, (If you want to know an in depth version of what happened, I made a post last year about her, it's titled "I'd Never Thought I'd Be Writing This") and a month and a half later, I lost her.
3 months later, same thing, Danny suddenly collapsed in his cage. We brought him out, and held him, certain that he would pass away that night. Miraculously, he came out of it within a few min. He wasn't his complete self, but he was okay. About a month later he started getting a VERY bad Respiratory illness, and his right leg stopped working. I took him to the vet and he suggested we leave him there to start antibiotics, a day later he passed away. Alone, in the vet's office.
2 months later, Paulie collapsed, and, you've heard this part before...Now I am stuck in the present, and the best I can do is make the most of it. I hope that the observations I gave you, dear reader, might help you someday. To catch whatever this is on time, and [I]maybe, just maybe save your baby, or at least buy more time.
Another thing, if you haven't already, CONVERT YOUR BUDGIES TO A PELLET DIET
. Regular seeds are like junk food, this is something I just learned. There are awesome posts on here about what to feed your budgie and safe fruits/veggies for them. If you haven't already, go check it out.
And lastly, I want to thank you, the Talk Budgie community. I signed up for this website 8 years ago, and I'm so glad I did. It's because of the good people here, and the wonderful topics on here that gave me the knowledge to raise and take care of my babies for 8 beautiful years.Thank you.
& Thank you for taking the time to read this.
(In Photo from left to right: Aqua, Danny, Starla, & Paulie)