My name is Kristen. Some of you may remember me from years ago on Talk Budgies, always raving about Banana and Peaches and their babies; Pistachio, Sunflower and Pear Bear, while also offering assistance for budgie owners with questions of all kinds. Unfortunately, I experienced some unexpected life events and busy times with college and the "growing up" process that we all go through in our early twenties that prevented me from being active for quite some time. I apologize for that!
I am here to pay tribute to my little girl, Peaches, who sadly passed away Monday evening. She was approximately 7 or 8 years old and a proud mother of one successful clutch of three females. During her early life, she had two unsuccessful clutches. She seemed eager to continue growing her family, and continued laying eggs throughout her adult life. It's important to note that she was not egg bound at the time of death.
On Monday, after I got home from work, I went to the birds cage and proceeded to top off their food and change their water like I do everyday. To my surprise, Peaches was sitting inside her food bowl, not moving. Typically, at least one of my birds are perched on the side of the food dish as I slowly open the latch to pour food on top, but this was different. I immediately removed her from the cage and took her into my hand to see what was going on.
Peaches seemed to be extremely distressed. I thought she may be having trouble laying an egg, but I was certain that she was not currently carrying any. I held her in my hand and she began to experience what I would consider severe seizures for nearly a half hour. I had my other half look up the symptoms over the phone because I could not bear to take my eyes off her for one second to do my own research. She would begin flailing her body and then leaning to one side, extremely stiff and legs laying flat against her tail, head cocked to one side. The ring around her eyes seemed to almost disappear. She would then go completely stiff. Minutes later, she would almost seem lifeless and limp. My other half said these seizures could cause her to lose consciousness and then she could regain it and be back to normal, possibly experiencing more seizures in the proceeding days. Something in my heart told me that I was going to lose my little girl...
I considered rushing her to the vet, but I knew these were her last moments of life. I would never forgive myself if I couldn't allow her to be as comfortable, soothed, loved and cherished during her final moments. I wanted her to know how much I loved her and let her say goodbye to Banana one last time.
The seizures continued to get worse and more violent. I couldn't and still can not believe what was happening to my little feathered family member that I have given the best care for. After her last violent seizure, she became very tense and her talons began to curl, legs streamline with her tail. Her head was extremely cocked to one side and her cheek feathers began to look like they were pulsating, in the area where her florescent markings were. Her heart must have been beating so fast because her belly was going up and down at a rapid pace. Her eyes shut halfway. I prepared for the worst, and prayed to God to not let her feel any pain and to know she was loved. I praised her in her final moments of life and told her how much of a good bird she has been and how much I love her.
Moments later, her heart stopped beating and she was gone... I believe proceeding the seizures, she must have experienced either a stroke or a heart attack. I am completely torn apart in grief, I can't believe she is gone! Just the day before, she was happy and flying with her family, exploring and chewing as she always did. There was not a single sign of illness or distress. She was eating normally and was tweeting up a storm like there was no tomorrow. I am so heartbroken!
I did extensive research on what may have caused her death and can't figure out what the cause might be. She had pesticide free seed and pellets, organic veggies everyday, cuttlebone, mineral blocks, daily out of cage flying time, fresh water and lots of toys. I just don't know what could have caused my little Peaches to be taken from this world in such a violent and painful way...
If anyone has any advice of what could have played a role in such an unexpected death, I would be so very appreciative. This has been such a difficult ordeal and I keep thinking maybe there was something I could have done to prevent her death... I know I wasn't a bad mom, I love my birds like they are my own children. I just can't help but feel guilty...
It's even harder to see Banana and their three chicks acting as if she was never alive, like they don't even know or care that she's gone. I would have expected them to at least realize she is missing...
Sorry for such a long post. Also, I didn't get a necropsy because I was so hysterical and heartbroken I couldn't imagine not having the opportunity to give her the proper burial under the tree amongst the outside wild birds she so eagerly wanted to play with...
PS: This is a picture of Peaches from when she was young. She only had her wings clipped in her early years and was always fully flighted.
So sorry to read about your beloved Peaches. At least she lived with someone who loved her. My Kauai also had no reaction when some other budgies (my mom's who were in my care when they were sick) died. I even show her the body --and no reaction. Maybe next time you visit the vet you can describe the symptoms and ask if the vet has any idea why Peaches became ill so suddenly. take care.
Mama to Miss Kauai (budgie) aka the blue terror and Miss Chanel (green linnie)
Thank you Carolyn. It is very hard to see Banana showing no remorse for Peaches being gone. At least her memory lives on in their three chicks, who keep Banana completely entertained at all times. It's nice to see Peaches personality and unique physical traits present in her babies. I've never noticed them as much as I do now.
On a positive note, the day after Peaches went to Rainbow Bridge, I was sitting outside watching the wild birds eating, bathing and playing near Peaches burial. Feeling down, I asked for a sign. A sign to show that Peaches is in a better place and that she's doing okay.
In less than ten seconds, a Pine Siskin perched on my shoulder and stayed for 30 seconds before fluttering off for a drink of water from the bird bath. I was in disbelief! It was so comforting!
Today, I was outside again feeling down and missing Peaches. I asked for another sign. I thought I was probably asking for too much and proceeded to check my email on my phone. Two minutes passed and a Pine Siskin landed right on top of my head and stayed for 30 seconds!
Never has a wild bird perched on me and I just couldn't believe a miracle like that could happen twice when I asked for a sign regarding Peaches well being. She was such a special bird.
I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how hard it is to lose such a special little one... Please accept my condolences.
It's amazing how the wild bird perched on you, that must really mean something. Maybe Peaches is watching over you and the rest of the flock.
Rest in peace, sweet Peaches.
I am devastated reading your post with tears streaming down my face, I feel for you, I just don't want to even think that our little baby will be gone one day it is unbearable and to have such a traumatic final few moments why does this happen?
Please live on in memories and fly high little peaches.
I can't believe it Kristen. Tears are streaming down my face as I read this. Having recently lost two of my own beloved little ones, I am just heartbroken for you as this hits very close to home. I am so sorry about Peaches. To have been fine one day, and not the next...
We are here for you. I hope you know that. Peaches will be with you forever in your heart...
Oh gosh, i am so sorry for your loss.. reading your post brought back some memories of my little Loki bird, the night before her loss she was fine and normal and no sign of illness at all.. to the morning of the next day, and something is seriously wrong.
My heart goes out to you at this very sad time, please accept my condolences
Rest in Peace little Peaches.. May you fly high and fly free, little one.
I'm another one sat here in tears reading what happened with your beloved little Peaches, I'm so so sorry! She had 8 years of love and care from you, even when she was seizing she knew you were there and that she was loved. I'm so sorry I can't even tell you
How wonderful to get such obvious signs of her well being in spirit, that must have been a huge comfort to you, to know she is ok and still with you in her way.
Sending virtual hugs and comforts to you! and my most sincere condolences to you and your family x
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