One year ago today, my Jacob flew to the Rainbow Bridge.
I remember when I found out....I was sitting on my bed talking and laughing and giving my mom a foot massage, and I caught I glimpse of green on the floor of the budgie out of the corner of my eye. I stopped what I was doing looked over to see what it was, and to my horror, it was Jacob.
I just stared. I didn't know what to do. My mom was talking to me and asking what was wrong but I couldn't respond. After a few moments, I walked over to the budgie cage, hoping and praying that he was just sitting there. But when I picked up his body from under the ladder, it was clear that he was dead. At this point my mom was very confused, and kept asking me what was wrong. The only thing I could say was "Jacob".
I didn't know how to react. I had never truly lost a pet before. Sure, as a little kid I lost some fish, frogs, and snails, I've also had to get rid a beloved dog, have two cats run away, and rehome some kittens. But all of that stuff combined didn't even measure up to how I felt. Once it sunk in, I just sobbed. I sobbed and snuggled Jacob's body for at least two hours. I could've sat like that forever. However, at some point my mother brought in a pencil box that she kinda made me to put Jacob in. In the pencil box, she had placed paper towels down, and then on top of the paper towels she put a bunch of fake fall leaves down. After I placed him in it, I surrounded him with Weasley's feathers, so he would always have a part of her. He looked beautiful. The gorgeous green bird laying on top of fall leaves surrounded by blue feathers. Even now, looking back at the pictures we took of him like that, he looks beautiful.
After that I cried for days. I cried so hard, and got these horrible headaches to go along with the crying. On top of me crying, Weasley mourned too. All she really did was sit on her perch and occasionally go and eat. It was heartbreaking to see her like that.
I still miss my little man. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. What they say is true, the pain will fade. You will be able to think about all the good times and be happy. But it never does go away. It'll still always be there. Sometimes you'll still cry and wish they were here. Sometimes you'll cry happy tears from the memories. You'll always remember them. ♥
I love you Jacob, I always will. I know your happy flying high with your Weasley, and I have that to hold on to. I miss you baby.
Always in my heart~
Mandy your tribute Jacob is just beautiful... What a lucky bird to have a wonderful owner like you Mandy.. Remember all of your Cherished memories he will be in your heart forever. Such a special guy you were Jacob.
My little bird you were so sweet
sent down from the heavens sky to me
I have no idea why
you were the sunshine in my day
special in every way
How you would run around
and play through the short summer days
When I came home you ran to me
Across the room looking up at me
from your short little world
It is an unforgettable love.
Last edited by LynandIndigo; 10-20-2013 at 09:36 PM.
I know exactly how you feel, I lost my precious Tito last January and there is not one day that passes by that I don't think or talk about him. Even his son, Tito Junior has learnt to say its father's name as I talk about him during his out of cage time, because he reminds me so much of his father.
I'm sure Jacob is looking down at you from rainbow bridge with the same love you have always showed him.
Your tribute to Jacob was really touching, I also shed a few tears for my Tito occasionally but as you say they are mostly brought up from the happy times, and part of me always wants to believe he is still here with me.
Rest in peace, sweet Jacob. You were much loved and will always be missed.
RIP sweet Tito (Summer 2008 - January 17th 2013).
You are missed and never will be forgotten.