In need of support. Lost a magical soul 2 nights ago.
On Sunday, I lost one of my dearest and most selfless, loving animal best buddies. Perry, my male budgie, died young and unexpectedly, but I am forever grateful that I was able to give him a happy life and comfort him somewhat as he passed on from this life, in my hands, and not alone. I am unsure of the cause of his sudden death. He was fine, chirping, happy and flying about at 6pm and was dead at 7:30pm. I found him at the bottom of the cage sitting low, wings fully spread and breathing very rapidly. I felt completely helpless and didn't know what to do. Bird owner my entire life with over 20 birds owned, and I never witnessed a death. I held him and he died before I could get me shoes on to take him to a 24hr ER. It happened so quickly. No changes in stools, eating habits or disposition leading up to this. If anyone has had a similiar unfortunate experience, please offer me some wisdom on what might have happened to him. I could not do an autopsy because both my son and I held his lifeless body all night and I couldnt bear to put him in a bag and stick him in the fridge. I know that might sound weird, but I couldn't bear parting with him that night. We were devestated. He was the sweetest soul I ever met and helped me through some of my own darkest times. Without him, I would have sunk into a deep depression at times but knowing this life was depending on me kept me going forward. And I could always depend on him to warmly and lovingly greet me. Our relationship and bond was special. I owe him my life and feel terrible I could not help him more at the end of his.
The next day, coming home from work was the first night in almost 20 years that I wasn't greeted by the beautful sound of a feathered friend. I only allowed Perry to fly freely when I was home, but as soon as I opened that cage door he flew excitedly onto my head, shoulder or hands. The house has a quiet stillness that I cannot bear. So much love and energy gone. I hope one day, when the pain has subsided enough, I can welcome another bird into my home, and heart.
It's funny how it's often the smallest and most helpless of souls that teach us the most about unconditional love, loyalty and cherishing the most simplest pleasures in life, without asking for much more in return. I am forever grateful for the 6 years I was able to care for him, love him and interact with his sweet soul daily, as he was very much a family member and not just a pet. I've owned dozens of birds and a few dogs in my lifetime and none tugged on my heart strings as much as this magical being that weighed a mere 28 ounces, but loved greater than anything larger than him. Had I not been the wiser, I would have thought his feet was the size of an eagles' talons, the way he gripped onto my heart. Now, it is broken and empty.
This weekend I will make a 3 hr trip to a Michigan town to bury him under an old beautiful willow tree that graces a peaceful country road, visited many times. My favorite place in the world. I will bury Perry in the soil that is protected by that beautiful tree.
Love never ends, you now take it with you, fly high sweet friend.
“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened."
Last edited by artnsound; 12-04-2013 at 11:48 PM.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Perry captured your heart and has left you with many happy memories. Please don't let his last moments stop you from remember and cherishing the enjoyment he provided.
As for the cause, given the suddenness of his death I would guess a stroke or similar. Unfortunately there is no way to know for sure without undertaking a necropsy. I can understand why you chose not to take this option, sometimes spending those last moments saying our goodbyes are more important than knowing the cause.
Fly high little one
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I'm so sorry for your loss. It is always heartbreaking no matter what age they leave us. I had a beautiful soul birdie leave me young once also and it was really hard. Maybe your little one had a heart attack?
Rest assured he knew you loved him and take comfort in that.
Where in MI will you be placing his little body?
Hopefully you will get more advice or answers with someone more knowledgeable the myself.
I am sorry for you loss. Lost 4 different parakeet. paulie my first parakeet die from my cat,Bow die unknown death,Birdie die egg suck in her I did not know. Jazmin die from a hole under her neck that did not heal right. Jazmin did not eat much,plus her break was long.
I'm so sorry for your loss of your precious little sweetheart Perry. It is very clear from your post how much he meant to you. Nothing can prepare us for this… It is the one aspect of budgie ownership that I just can't bear. I shed a lot of tears whenever I read threads in this forum as it just hits so close to home. The attachment we feel with these tiny little beings is tremendous and to lose them is to lose a part of ourselves.
We are here for you during this heartbreaking time, okay?
Oh no - I was So sad to read your passionate, heartfelt tribute to your darling, sweet Perry - how devastating his sudden death was.
I can relate to how Huge and important he was in your life - I think we all can. It is almost unbelievable how much they are cherished and treasured - as you said, many pets later, they stand out in shining brilliance among them all.
I wish I could help you figure out the cause, but whatever it was, it ultimately makes no difference; they are gone from our every day...
Please accept my deepest sympathy on you great loss
Unending Thanks, Ms FaeryBee, for the Absolute Perfect Picture!
I'm so sorry for your loss... It's indeed heartbreaking and I know how you feel about Perry. I also had the misfortune of having to say goodbye to my most beloved little friend, my budgie and birdie soulmate, Tito.
I know the pain is hard to bare, but time will heal the wound left in your heart and soon your heart will be filled again by all the wonderful memories of the times spent with your precious Perry.
Rest in peace, sweet Perry. You were much loved and will be missed.
RIP sweet Tito (Summer 2008 - January 17th 2013).
You are missed and never will be forgotten.