It's been a long time since I have been much active on Talk Budgies and I apologize for my sudden absence. I have been away from home for the past couple of weeks and I am home again and really trying to become a solid part of the community as I was before my difficult trip.
Now that I stable and back home, I plan to visit Talk Budgies every morning and every night because this forum is an addiction to me and not being here the past two months have been really hard.
While I was away, my brother Kevin took charge of my two beloved budgies, Grace and Soula. It was very hard for me to say goodbye to them, but I knew once I came home, it would be a heartfelt welcome.
Unfortunately, I never got that welcome.
On October 20th, my little Soula passed away. As Kevin described, he feels that Soula might have gotten a night fright and then next morning, bleed to death on the bottom of the cage. Because my budgies were still in my room and Kevin was in his room, he had no idea the nightfright happened.
On October 28th, Grace, my little pudgy budgie and my sweet little man, passed away as well. No one knows how he died and if he was ever sick, but I'm not too eager to find out. Maybe this is a little too "story like" but maybe he just got very lonely without Soula. Grace has always been a budgie that had a partner. After his first love, Dallas, passed away, he really was living on the edge. Introducing Soula to him wasa big deal and they got along compassionately.
Maybe two was all he could handle.
And as tears fall from writing this, I am happy that I'm finally able to tell you guys and treat this as grief. I had been in denial ever since I heard the news and pretended that nothing happened.
Once I got back home, I realized that the black cage in my room was empty. Never was it empty. That's when it finally hit me.
I know that whenever my other budgies passed away, I was able to bring home another budgie to my flock. In this case, I am not ready for that yet. It is very difficult for me to go into a pet store anymore and pass by that budgie cage. This is also why I quit my job at the exotic birds store.
I, now, have no budgies currently. There is a big empty hole in my life because of this situation, but I am nowhere near to filling it, simply because I feel nothing can.
It is also a difficult day for me because today is the day I bought my baby boy, Christmas, a year ago. He died after a respiratory infection got a hold of him.
One day soon, I will be ready to bring home another baby and love him and cherish him as I did with all of my other budgies. Just not now.
And in a finishing note, here is a picture of Grace and Soula in their final photoshoot.
Thanks for reading,