(Died: 8th March, 2000)
I have been dreading doing this, but i hope that it will give me some closure.
We got you when i was 5, and you died when i was nearly 18, at 13 years old. You had a long life, but i know that it was cut short.
I'm really sorry if i didn't give you enough attention in the early years. I suppose i didn't really know how important it was back then. I used to tell my friends that i didn't think i would cope when you died, but i didn't realise then just how close we would become, and how difficult it would be when that time came.
You deserve some apologies:
I'm sorry for not giving you many toys, as we thought they would clutter your cage.
I'm sorry for holding you, and bathing you, when we knew you didn't like it.
I'm sorry that we threw things at you, such as socks, when you went somewhere you shouldn't.
I'm sorry for shouting at you and telling you off.
I cannot apologise enough for bringing Cheeky home. I have blamed her for killing you for all of these years, and i now know it was our fault, especially mine. I dread to think what you had to put up with in the cage with her when we weren't there. What annoys me most is that we knew you were scared. You were so relieved when we let you out of your cage alone. But then we'd put you back in there. Eventually she caused you to break your leg, and we had to have you put to sleep. I am so sorry for not knowing any better at them time, and i wish i coud have realised then that i was happy enough just with you. I have paid for what we did by losing you when it wasn't your time. 8 years later, i still feel the pain. More than ever now that i know it was down to me that you died. But i hope that i have learned from my mistakes.
Despite the mistakes, which only make up a tiny fraction of our lives together, there was lots of fun and loving. I will always remember the races we used to have, and how pleased you always were to see us when we got up in the morning, and got home from work and school. Not to mention all the kissing!
I absolutely love you Herbie. You were my sister, my mate, and my best friend for 13 years.... half of my life so far. We went through a lot together. I will love you forever, and never ever forget you. When my time comes i hope to see you again, and i hope that you have forgiven me for what happened.
RIP Herbie (with the spikey yellow hair
). We all miss you, especially me. You will stay in my heart forever. xxx
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