My beautiful bird Tiki died a few days ago and I can't stop crying.
It's basically my fault that it happened. I went to visit my relatives for a few weeks and had my neighbour look after the cage. Turns out, my clever little birds dislike being cooped up and would take the opportunity to fly out when changing the water/food. I would usually let them out to fly around the house at least 3 times a week, and they would always stay on the fake tree and would return themselves, which they were used to. But one of my five birds seems to have gotten scared and flew to a different room. He was fine until he somehow got himself stuck behind the bookshelf and died there. Its such a cruel way to die, and just thinking about it makes me cry even more. Getting stuck there has never happened before, and if only I had just come home a few days earlier, I could have saved him. I should have been more careful. If only I had told my neighbour to keep track of my budgies. Or I should have just taken care of them myself. As soon as I came home yesterday night and realized that he was missing, I began looking for him everywhere for hours and hours until this morning. But it was already 2-3 days too late.
It's not like others whose budgies died happily of old age. Tiki was still so young and had such a slow terrible death. I was with him since the day he hatched and watched him grow. Now, I buried him beside some flours in the backyard with some of his favourite seeds. His life was just too short. I should have just stayed home to look after them. When I look at the rest of the flock without tiki, I feel so bad. Whenever I see a picture of a blue bird, I begin to cry. I'm such a terrible person! If I had taken precautions or somehow got home earlier. I should have gave home away to someone else, so that he'd probably have a longer life. If I had known, I would have given him more of his favourite junk-food seeds.
Omg I'm feeling so terrible right now. I should just give the rest of my birds away since I fear that another one will die. But I don't trust others to take care of my birds anymore. I really don't know what to do right now. If only I'd given Tiki a happier life. I just feel like mourning forever. I just really hope that Tiki was happy during his short lifetime, and is now in a better place. I'm regretting everything that I've done, since I feel like things would have ended differently if only I made the slightest changes to my actions. I don't know if its considered an accident, since I'm feeling so guilty. I feel like a really terrible terrible person D':
My heart goes out to you. Tiki was cared for and loved and had an amazing parent in you. The limited time he had in this world, I am sure that he lived it fully.
It indeed is a terrible way to die but you couldn't have done anything. Don't blame yourself. These little ones are so fragile and it is impossible for us to save them for every imminent danger. We try out best and we fail at times. We can learn from those failures. This post of yours will help others become more aware about little harmless things that can be dangerous for our delicate birds. You have saved a lot many such accidents from happening.
Take your time to grieve. Time will heal everything and you will remember all the good moments with your beloved bird, Tiki.
We are all here for you. We have all loved and lost. We can share your pain. Feel free to talk about it. We all have made mistakes. And we have learnt from them. And I agree with you that we cannot trust someone else with our pets.
Sending a lot of blessings from my side. Tiki has joined others on the rainbow bridge. Fly high little Tiki.
I am very sorry for the terrible accident that lead to your Tiki's passing...
You have my deepest sympathies.
It's obvious you love and care very much for your flock and unfortunately freak accidents do happen, so try not to blame yourself and instead focus on continuing to care for your current birdies.
As responsible pet owners, we all strive to be better, to learn from past mistakes and give all the best to our little ones.
Time will heal the pain you are feeling, I know how hard it is to let go of a baby bird you have watched grow from day 1 and hopefully soon you will be able to remember fondly your budgie boy Tiki, the memory of him will live on in your heart.
Rest in peace, little Tiki. You were much loved and will be missed.
Despite the very sad circumstances, welcome to the forums.
RIP sweet Tito (Summer 2008 - January 17th 2013).
You are missed and never will be forgotten.
OH NO! I can sort of relate to this. I didn't lose my bird, but a couple of weeks ago (as he was playing on his playground) I moved his cage to wash it, and he flew back to it (where it usually is), but know where to land. So he tried to land on the top of his other cage (which at the time was on the shelf where his big cage usually stays at night), but he missed and slid off the back, and down behind shelf. He chirped and remained calm until I could stick my hand in behind, and then jumped up and let me carry him out. But it made me wonder what might have happened had I not been home (or even in the room).
My house is bird proofed (for lack of a better word), but there is only so much a person can do. Budgies are small and can fit into the smallest of places. I've ever heard of birds falling into glasses of water trying to get a drink or take a bath (and then getting stuck, or potentially drowning).
Please don't feel badly. Accidents sometimes happen, and there is only so much we can do.
Perhaps you can create a list for the next bird sitter? Quirks of the birds that could get them into trouble (for example if you have a bird that will seek out water), and instructions to close all doors to other rooms, window blinds, and anything else that could get them into trouble while you're away. And a first aid box might also ease your mind.
I'm so sorry to hear about little Tiki but honestly there is no way you can blame yourself, it was a tragic accident that no one could have forseen, it will be more painful for you because you have loved and cared for Tiki since he was a chick but in time that pain will diminish and you will have such happy memories forever, please don't blame yourself. I'm sending you a hug from everyone on TalkBudgies
Oh no - So sorry to hear about this terrible accident. I know you are heartbroken to have lost your sweet little Tiki, however it happened - but this way was particularly distressing because of all your natural "What ifs", and consequent guilt. Budgies are so small, quick, inquisitive, and fast, that they are unfortunately vulnerable to this sort of accident - It doesn't make it any easier to bear such a loss, but hopefully it might help you with some of your guilt - given the whole series of events that led up to this, you couldn't have possibly foreseen what would happen. Please don't blame yourself - it really wasn't your fault.
I am so very sorry for your loss
Unending Thanks, Ms FaeryBee, for the Absolute Perfect Picture!