You have no idea how hard this is, I just want this all to be a bad dream.
My one and only Rainbow has passed away last night in the most horrible way,
She started getting night frights a few weeks ago where she would go nuts in the cage and start banging herself all over so I decided to leave the light on longer till she fell asleep and it worked. Well tonight my dad was getting mad because she was starting to chirp at Mr. Tumnus and it was waking him up so I ran to the cage and banged it a little then grabbed Rainbow really fast and took her into the washroom that's when she started going all nuts in my hands, I kept calling her name but she just died so fast.
So she died of a heart attack I'm guessing because it was pitch black when I grabbed her.
It's ALL my fault, because of me I lost the most amazing budgie I've EVER had in my life.
I kept her little body beside me all night, it was soaked of tears and I just kept hugging her.
Rest in peace my beloved Rainbow, fly free as the white angel you are. I'm so sorry!
Right now I feel so empty, I just can't get over what happened.... I loved her so much!
You all have a very good reason to hate me, I hate myself even more.