Thank you so much for all of your support while I was trying to get Bell well. I had gone out of the country and my Vet was Pet sitting. During the week my vet emailed me that Bell didn't look well, but then again the next day to say she gave him a doxycycline shot and he looked much better. Then the day my husband went to pick him up he didn't look well. The vet said she had just given him his medications so he might just be stressed. My husband took him home. When I got in I immediately saw that something was wrong. His head was cocked and he wasn't moving it, as if he couldn't move it. He started to hold on to the side of the cage to keep himself standing on the perch. when he let go he nearly fell off the perch. He appeared to be having neurological symptoms. I knew he wouldn't make it through the night. I called back the vet (at 945 at night) and told her I thought it might be time and asked her what she thought. She said that it wouldn't be the wrong decision. I told her I was going to take him to the ER to have him put down. She was so nice she told me she would meet me in the lobby and she would help me instead of me going to the ER to someone who didn't know me or Bell. I was hysterical. Bell did not appear to be in pain, but he was very very very weak. I had never seen him this way. If she tried to hold him he did squeak in pain but did not seem to be in pain if standing alone. I thought about him falling to the bottom of the cage in the night and dying alone and being in pain. I couldn't let it happen and I knew it would if I didn't take him. The vet was so kind. In fact she became tearful herself as she had gotten to know him very well over the last month and especially over the last week. I took him to the hospital. He let me rub his head and he enjoyed it. His eyes smiled up at me. I can't go into details but it was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life... I can't believe he is gone. I love him so much. Greeny my other guy is squaking and squaking and looking all over the cage for him... I feel so much grief... I know it was the right thing to do but I feel guilt too. It was so hard... I miss him soo much. I just burst into tears thinking about it.
Oh no. I'm so sorry about Bell. I know that was the hardest thing you ever had to do.
We had to make that decision when Blue was sick. When there's no quality of life we have to let them go. That's been two years and I still think about him to this very day. The guilt I felt was unbearable. But these poor little guys suffer so.
My heart goes out to you because I truly know exactly how you're feeling.
A gentle sleep is sometimes the kindest answer to the most impossible questions of all.
The thought for Bell was that he had some sort of liver malfunction whether it was liver disease or a liver tumor was not clear, either way it made him vulnerable to infection. He kept getting infections over and over again, so he'd get the antibiotic and look better again, but I think this time, it was finally the liver issue that had progressed. Keeping the infection at bay simply didn't work anymore. As I said it seemed he was having neurological symptoms. This seems to fit the liver failure theory. When the liver isn't functioning correctly it can lead to encephalitis which causes these neurological signs.. I had tried everything and I believe that up until that day Bell had enjoyed his life. If I had kept him alive it would have been because I would miss him not because it was the best thing for him... I just wish it didn't have to be this way. He was so loving and sweet. It just doesn't seem fair... I wouldn't have wanted to not be with him at the end, but it was so hard...
I am soo sorry for your loss. Bell sounds like she was one special budgie. I know how much it hurts to put a beloved friend down. I had to have my dog put to sleep in 1995, due to having cancer, and old age. I still get tears in my eys when I think of her. Fly free in birdy heaven Bell.