It has been 7 years since my last posting. My little man of 11 years "budzie boy" named after his partner has passed away 2 days ago and I am having a really really tough time. I have massive guilt for leaving him with a pet sitter having to be away for work.
The pet sitter showed up for one day only and not the rest as she claimed. I trusted the sitter would do the right thing. My alarm system records all entries. I never was able to say goodbye!!!!
The one day I had to leave is the one day he leaves for good. I can not bring him back. I thought when his partner passed it was hard but this one ruptures my soul.
He was a symbol of 11 years of struggle and was there for me when no human would, he did more for me than I did for him in and I was in debt to him. I feel that I failed him. The memories for so many years are extremely deep. The routine of my life for the last 11 years has come to an abrupt end.
I realize he would not last forever but not leave me like this.
BUDZIE BOY!!! I AM SO SORRY!!!!
I am extremely sorry this has happened, to of shared eleven wonderful years is amazing and the bond you both felt must truly of been wonderful. I can sincerely imagine the guilt you are feeling right now, but honestly as your sweet boy looks down upon you he is sue to know it was not your fault. You did the best you could and trusted in the sitter.
memories are still with you to cherish, once the hurt starts to lessen I am sure you will be able to smile when you think of your budgie once more. fly high and free reunited with your budgie friend in the Angel flock.
I'm at a loss for words here, this is extremely sad my heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry this tragedy has happened. Budzie was loved very much and I have no doubt he is watching down on you as you come to terms with this.
I wish I had some advice for you regarding the pet sitter.
I'm so sorry for this very tragic turn of events and you have my deepest sympathies over the loss of your precious budgie boy.
I'm sure your Budzie Boy knows just how much he was loved, cherished and cared by you. The 11 years you had with him are a true testament to all the excellent care you have given him.
Please, try to not blame yourself, clearly the pet sitter was not responsible and unfortunately it came down to a heartbreaking outcome, you didn't know this person was irresponsible and ultimately you were paying for a service that was clearly not well done. I will even go as far as saying that this person should not be allowed to pet sit.
I know how difficult it is to come to terms with the fact you no longer have your little friend and I hope with time your heart begins to heal. You will always have the memories of the 11 years you had with Budzie Boy and he will forever live on in your heart.
Rest in peace, Budzie Boy. You were much loved and will be missed.
Maybe when you have healed enough from your loss you will feel that you are ready to welcome another budgie friend into your life. I'm wishing you all the best and hope you will feel better soon.
RIP sweet Tito (Summer 2008 - January 17th 2013).
You are missed and never will be forgotten.
This is just the saddest - I can truly relate to the acute pain and loss you feel. 11 years is a long lifetime of budgie love, but not Nearly long enough.
Please don't feel guilty on top of your intense grief - it Really is not your fault in Any way - That "pet sitter" you had to trust for a short while will have to stand before God herself, and give an account for her cruel and irresponsible behavior - it has nothing to do with you whatsoever. You Did not fail him - she did.
In the end, you were a Great budgie Mom, to have provided him with the love and care it takes to maintain a beloved budgie for 11 whole years. Wow.
There's really nothing I can say to ease the pain - I have gone through this, myself, and only time will help heal your broken heart, to be able to smile at your happy memories of the incomparable budzie boy.
Please accept my deepest sympathy on your great loss
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Rest in Peace, sweet handsome Budzie Boy. Keep his cute face and happy song close to your heart, and he will be with you forever. Budzie had a nice long life, thanks to your love and good care. But still, he left you much too soon. I also hope that sometime, when the time feels right, you will find another little budgie to love. Budzie Boy would like that.
So so sorry. Fly high little boy. It is so hard when they leave us. But you should be happy he had a good long life.He will be reunited with his little friend now. It will hurt very much now.. But he will always be in your heart.
I am devastatingly sorry to hear of your loss. It is heartbreaking to know you weren't with him in his final moments and when you left, you didn't know you would never see him fly, or play, or chirp again.
But although it was his time to leave you, the irresponsible pet sitter will always have a small black spot on her soul for allowing such an innocent creature to perish.
Your grief is well placed, 11 happy years is a long time indeed for such a loyal friend. I'm sure it should have been many more years with Budzie Boy, but all the time already past is a treasure and he will always live with you in your memories.
He knew he was loved until the very end, and please don't feel guilty for his death. You did what you could for his best interests and it's not your fault the sitter was awful.
Budzie is looking over the rainbow bridge, remembering his mum who loved him so much and spreading his wings over you.
Rest in peace, Budzie Boy. Sleep among the stars.
and Princess Mallorn!
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