It is with deep sadness and shock that I write this tonight. My sweet, littlest flock member is gone. Just a few hours earlier I observed Twigs flying around active and appearing healthy as usual. There was no sign of trauma, nothing in the cage amiss, nothing in the house either, as Mink and my parrots are fine.
Again, as with the loss of his first bonded partner, I feel the same guilt that I did not 'see' him in his last hours, and he crawled down to the bottom of the cage and passed away, alone. Mink was in the cage sitting on a favorite swing like nothing was wrong. But no humans were in the room this evening to see him, and I feel so terribly sad about that. I was in the other room to let my 3 parrots out of their cages for the evening and attending to them.
A few weeks ago, Twigs seemed a little 'off', so I took him to his vet right away as soon as I saw the first sign of any thing wrong. The vet did culture swabs and gave an antibiotic injection. The result of the swabs confirmed that she had given Twigs the right meds for the slight bacterial infection. The injection was supposed to last for a week. At the end of the week, sure enough, Twigs was up and energetic, singing and screaming once again like the happy and feisty little guy he was. He has been recovered for I think it's probably been a couple weeks now. This is why I was in absolute shock when I found him on the bottom of the cage when I went to put him and Mink to bed.
I was about to post a 'pretend' birthday announcement this week with Twigs' estimated hatchday. I never thought I'd be posting about my beloved boy in this section now instead. Twigs was approximately 4 years old. I was hoping he was going to be one of those budgies to live to be 15+. He was colony bred from a bird mill before the store, I am sure. Who knows what had developed internally that we could not see. His partner from the same source passed away at 2 of organ and systemic malfunction despite a good diet. Looking back, Twigs did have a few problems over the 4 years I've had him that hinted that he might have been genetically similar. While he always became strong again, I do wonder if he just wasn't hardy enough. My beautiful little boy, cute as a little button. He'd make me laugh and smile every single day for these years that I had the pleasure of having him.
I just can't believe this . I am so terribly sad, and shocked.
Oh Julie, I'm so sorry that your beloved little Twigs has gone. You did the best you could for him and couldn't have known after he returned to his happy self that anything was amiss.
He was one of the first budgies I got to 'know' on here through the lovely pictures and stories you shared and I'm just so shocked by this post.
Emma, thank you so much for your kind words. I figured you guys would be as shocked to hear this as I was to find him. I am so terribly sad. I will bring him to his vet for cremation tomorrow. Luckily I have tons of his feathers and I just pulled all his tail feathers to put in his cremation box like I did with his late partner.
Please let Jimmy know that his 'twin' brother is now his guardian angel.
I can imagine you are beside yourself right now and feeling a deep sense of regret for feeling as though you should have been there and if you had only have known, but as sudden and silent as it was, there is nothing you could have done to change what has happened. Sometimes we are there to comfort our little darlings onto their next journey, other times, we are hit with the shock of abrupt death without ever making our own peace with them and thanking them for all their love and chirps.
You can still honour his memory and the good times you both had together. Honour him in death as in life -- let his amazing budgie love fill you up reminding you of just how amazing it was to be a part of his little life and the safety, comfort, and joy you have given him in return.
It may feel like loss now, yet Twigs gave you so much joy. The memory of that joy lasts in your lifetime, and until then, all is not loss nor lost.
RIP dear Twigs. Take care of yourself, Julie. Sending you warm hugs and gentle comfort at this time.
I am so very sorry for your loss of darling little Twigs.
I'm in tears right now for you - Twigs was one of my favorites and I truly know how much you are hurting right now.
Twigs was much loved by many and will be sorely missed.
I'll lend you,
for a little while, a bird of mine, He said.
For you to love while he lives,
and mourn when he is dead.
It may be six or seven years, or maybe twenty-three,
But will you, till I call him back, take care of him for me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you, and shall his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay, as all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there I want this bird to learn.
I've looked the whole world over in my search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love - not think this labor vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call, to take him back again.
I fancied that I heard them say, 'Dear Lord, thy will be done.'
For all the joy this bird shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shower him with tenderness and love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay.
And should the angels call for him much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand.
Oh no, Julie I'm so sorry to hear of the very unexpected passing of your little Twigs... You have my deepest sympathies.
Time will ease the pain and hopefully soon the memories of the good times you had with your boy will give you comfort.
Twigs will continue to live on in your heart. My thoughts and prayers are with you in this very difficult time.
Rest in peace, little Twigs. You were much loved and will be missed.
RIP sweet Tito (Summer 2008 - January 17th 2013).
You are missed and never will be forgotten.
Oh Julie. I am very sorry for the sudden passing of twigs. Time will heal.. Your post made me cry. I wish I could give you a hug... I am thinking of you Julie. I made this pome up for you.
Fly high up in the sky Twigs sing a beautiful song you were very much loved by your wonderful mum.....
Twigs you are my presious little bird you were so sweet
sent to me from the heavens sky.
I have no idea why
Twigs you were the sunshine of my life
In every special way
How you would fly around
and play each and every day
When I came home you flew from across the room to me
you looked up at me with your cute little eyes
And so much unforgettable love will always be there forever in my heart....
Last edited by LynandIndigo; 05-05-2016 at 08:20 AM.
Reason: Fixed a word.
Poor little budgie soul. This is so heart breaking and I am crying too for your pain. Sending you prayers, many hugs and healing vibes to help you stay strong till your deep grief can loose its grip. The many happy memories of your time together will help you now, until the day the sun comes out again.