I had Budd for only a few years. I joined this site when I first got him. In those few years I got to know him and he got to know me and my family. We all loved him. He was a really happy boy, always singing or talking saying "Hello Budd, Goodbye Budd, Love you Budd"
I had gone on a week holiday but during that time had a bit of a family breakdown and wasn't able to come home for months. I was gone for 28 days at that point when Budd passed away (April 19th 2016). My mum and sister looked after him for me. I still don't know why he passed. Maybe he became sick, maybe he was bitten, maybe he became lonely and depressed. I really don't know. I am so sorry to him, that this happened to my sweet boy.
Coming home and seeing Budd's empty cage was horrible, I kept looking at it randomly throughout the day expecting to see him in there swinging on his swing or playing with his toys and bells, chirping. I had to disassemble his cage and put everything away.
I'm really thankful that I got to have the time I did with him, and ofcourse doubt myself if it was something I did or didn't do. So I'm sorry to him.
Dealing with his loss has been strange, I went to not wanting a bird again to almost buying two budgies that were playing in store together on a whim. I'm accepting his loss slowly. I decided to get another baby budgie, this time handreared. I should get him or her in a few weeks and am keeping updated on the weaning process with the breeder. Experiencing many things right now: excitement, joy, nervousness, sadness, grief.
I hope Budd can forgive me and I am open to this new journey once again.