Slightly over a week ago, my 7 year-old budgie, Sky, passed away.
For those of you who saw my last post, she had a dark area that had spontaneously developed on her beak, and continued to grow beneath the beak if that makes sense.
I was hoping for some answers and reassurance from you budgie owners to help me better understand her death as I'm still grieving.
Basically, I decided to take her to our local avian vet for the first time. She performed a physical examination - all seemed fairly well (her stools were okay, beak structure was alright besides the odd colouring, etc.), so the spot on her beak wasn't accompanied by any other visible symptoms.
I was then given two options - to continue to wait it out and see if anything else comes up, or to take a blood sample to count her liver enzymes or have it tested for any other potential infections.
Well, I definitely was not anticipating the following outcome. The vet came back with the last thing I wanted to hear - that she had passed while drawing blood. I was speechless and left with so much confusion, and regret.
The vet had explained that she had started experiencing respiratory distress after only half of the appropriate amount of blood for her weight was taken, meaning that my budgie must have been very ill. They immediately stopped and rushed to give her oxygen, but that didn't work. I was heartbroken and felt so guilty, but she explained that I would've felt even worse if I hadn't done any further diagnostics and had my budgie die at home.
I have really tried to believe the doctor as she's the professional, but since I'm the one who made the decision to have the blood test done, I can't help but question that decision.
I appreciate those of you who took the time to read this - it's been very hard going through this as 1) I've had her for quite a large portion of my life, 2) It was an absolute shock losing her at the clinic, where I went to find a cure and 3) Because I still feel partially responsible for her death.
Many of you are definitely more experienced than I am as a budgie owner, so your opinions in regard to this experience at the vet would be amazing. I'm just trying to understand what happened.
Thank you so much, blessings to all.
Rest in peace Sky, your fellow budgie mate Cloudy and our family miss you and love you like crazy.
I'm so very sorry for your loss of beautiful little Sky.
I fully understand the distress and turmoil you are feeling right now -- it is completely normal.
Your little girl was 7 years old.
In this day and age, 7 - 8 years old for a budgie is about the average life expectancy. This is due to the fact that budgies have been so inbred over the years in the US and Canada that they no longer have the robust genetic makeup budgies did 20-30 years ago.
I'm sure your Avian Vet did everything she could for your little Sky. You did what you thought best in asking for the blood tests to be performed. No one could know ahead of time that Sky would unexpectedly pass during the procedure.
Treat yourself kindly during this time of grief.
You gave Sky a lifetime of love and happiness.
She is now happily playing at the Rainbow Bridge knowing how very much she is loved.
Fly high and soar freely darling Sky; rest peacefully now sweet girl.
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free.
I'm following the path God laid you see.
I flew to Him when I heard His call
I had to go and leave you all..
I could not stay another day
To chirp, to fly, to preen, to play.
All things undone must stay that way
I found my peace at the close of day.
If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A song, a snuggle and many a kiss
Oh yes, these things I too will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life's been full, I savoured much
My happy home, my Mommy’s touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don't spend yours now with undue grief.
Lift up your hearts and peace to thee
God wanted me now; He set me free.
Modified from poem written by: Janice M. Fair-Salters
So sorry for your loss of sweet Sky. When things don't turn out the way we anticipate it is normal to question our choices but keep in mind that you were trying to help Sky and had no way of knowing the outcome in advance
Oh No - how shocking and devastating to lose your darling Sky like that!
But I have to agree that you did the very best you knew how by bringing her to the vet, and I'm sure the vet did the best she could; so you absolutely should not blame yourself in the slightest for "causing" Sky's death. Sometimes terrible things like this just happen, no matter how careful or what the intentions were...
Please accept my very deepest sympathy and compassion - I am so sorry for your great loss
Unending Thanks, Ms FaeryBee, for the Absolute Perfect Picture!
Leah I am so sorry to hear that Sky has gone to Rainbow Bridge. Please, please understand that you did everything you could - you took her to the expert, the Vet, who always do their best and no-one would ever have predicted such a shocking outcome. You have loved Sky for a long time and so you will miss her; give yourself time to grieve, remember all her lovely ways and hold her in your heart forever until that day when she flies to you on Rainbow Bridge