Around 6pm I came home and was feeding the budgies, Raz flew out of his cage, the cat was inside however so I quickly grabbed him but when I opened my hand to let him back into the cage he was all limp. I rushed him to the vet but they couldn't do anything.
I don't know what happened. I didn't think I'd grabbed him that hard, I'd grabbed him many times over the years so I knew never to squeeze or anything but maybe this time it was too much or else it shocked him or caught him by surprise. I don't know. I hate myself so much. He was fine just moments before but then he wasn't moving or breathing. If I hadn't touched him would he have been fine
He was my boy for 6yrs. And now he's not with me anymore.
How did this happen. I can't comprehend anything right now. I want to rewind time so I could get him back in the cage another way or maybe I should've put the cat out instead and let Raz fly around and make his own way back to the cage. It's all my fault. 6yrs together and now in just moments he's gone.
I can't do anything anymore. He was everything to me. Raz. I have so many pictures and videos of him I was going to post. I had bought new toys for the budgies that I was going to put into their cage tomorrow but now, it's all pointless. I'm sorry Raz. I'm so so so so sorry. I love you so much. I want you back. My boy, I'm sorry. Raz please forgive me. Nothing will be the same without you, my beautiful budgie. I love you. I'll always love you.
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I have had a similar incident happen which resulted in the death of a budgie, so I can understand the feelings of guilt and wishing you could reverse time. Unfortunately, no matter how much we try to analyse every second leading up to, or what we could do differently, we can't turn back time. It will be difficult but, it's important to remind yourself that accidents do happen. It doesn't mean you loved Raz any less, and I'm sure he forgives you. He's now flying around over the rainbow bridge. In future it may be good to think about things you might be able to do in order to prevent this happening again, but for now, try not to torture yourself by dwelling on it. Instead try to focus on your remaining budgie, and giving him/her the happiest life possible. I know things are looking really grim right now, but it does get easier. If you want to talk, or just need someone to vent to, feel free to send me a private message any time
Thank you for the lovely words. I'm sorry you've had to experience this too. I'm still in shock but I do still have Nemo here with me and I don't think she understands, it's just obvious he's not there or answering her calls for him. It breaks my heart to hear her calling. I'm not sure what I can do to help her though as unlike Raz she's not tamed so I doubt I'd be a comforting presence for her. She seems so lonely though, she and Raz have been mates for 5 years and now she can't even hear him anywhere in the house.
I want to do what's best for her but I'm not sure if doing something such as getting her another budgie friend is a good thing or not. I'm personally not ready for that as nothing will replace Raz in my heart but it might cheer Nemo up a bit? I'm not sure. Any advice?
I'm burying Raz now in the backyard, he always liked the sun. I can't believe I'm saying goodbye to him.
I am so sorry. The guilt is a horrible feeling, allow yourself to grieve properly. I cried for 3 days straight when I lost my bird. It took me 3 years to buy another one. If you feel that your bird isn't adjusting after a few weeks then do what you think is best. Another bird won't replace Raz but it might help when you are ready.
I'm very sorry for your unexpected loss of darling Raz.
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free.
I'm following the path God laid you see.
I flew to Him when I heard His call
I had to go and leave you all..
I could not stay another day
To chirp, to fly, to preen, to play.
All things undone must stay that way
I found my peace at the close of day.
If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A song, a snuggle and many a kiss
Oh yes, these things I too will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life's been full, I savoured much
My happy home, my Mommy’s touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don't spend yours now with undue grief.
Lift up your hearts and peace to thee
God wanted me now; He set me free.
Modified from poem written by: Janice M. Fair-Salters
Fly high and soar freely sweet Raz; rest peacefully now wee man.
Please try to recognize that blaming yourself isn't doing you any good.
Know that Raz loves you and would not want you to feel guilt on his behalf.
Raz did not suffer.
He is pain-free and will happily play at the Rainbow Bridge until you are reunited someday.
Try to let go of the negative feelings.
Calm and positive energy will help Nemo cope with her feelings of loss.
You will need to speed additional time with her and give her extra TLC.
I would not recommend getting another budgie for at least two months.
You need to allow Nemo to settle into her new reality.
She may well end up liking being a solo bird.
If you do decide to get another budgie friend for Nemo in the future, it is very important you take the following into consideration:
If you decide to get another budgie in the future, please be sure to observe quarantine for the new budgie.
Quarantine means housing the new bird in a different cage in a different room than the current bird (as far away from the room the current bird is in as possible) for a period of 35-45 days.
Budgies mask symptoms when they are ill. Symptoms may not show up for over two weeks.
Often you will not even realize your bird is not well. Many budgie illnesses are airborne which is why you need to quarantine your new bird in a completely different room.
It is also a good idea to always take a new budgie in to see an Avian Vet for a "well-birdie" check-up. This allows you to develop a good relationship with the vet and the vet can establish a baseline for your bird in case of any future illnesses or injuries.