Today I lost Kiwi to an unsuccessful vet intervention. I'm adding a thread I made just two days ago when I explain what happened to her.
I have nowhere else to explain how sad I feel about her passing, or at least no place where I could find someone who understands it. I have a mixture of different emotions, including the feeling that I could have done so much more for her, despite trying my best to check her daily. I must have missed something, but this past week was one of the worst ones for me for personal reasons, and sadly, I couldn't check on her as much as I should have. The vet told me she looked strong still, but I blame no one else but me in this situation.
I'm so sorry for my little girl, and I am willing to take full responsibility and improve my care for my other birds. I just wish Kiwi's procedure would have gone differently, and she could be here still.
Kiwi came to my life around one year ago. She was rather young, intrepid and really curious about everything. She was really stubborn, but she was also really cute. The moment she put her feet on my hand was probably one of the happiest days I got with her. It was an amazing feeling, to have her perched on my finger and eat the grapes or mandarin that I would give to her. She loved mandarines and loved to chew coriander. I am grateful, for every day she spent with me, even those when she would bite me or when she would try to chew on the wood of my door. She was restless, but I loved that about her, and will probably remember it for long. I will miss my little girl, I will miss her trying to peck my nose, trying to fly on people's glasses, getting excited about a bath and how happy she looked when my mom sang to her. I love her so much, and the thought of not hearing her again is inexplicable. Even now, I just cannot gather enough words for what Kiwi meant and still means for me.
A few years ago never imagined having budgies as companions, even less one as amazing as Kiwi was. She and my other budgies became my company and support in all the hard situations I have gone through this past year and it never ceases to amaze me how much a small bird can give to you, if you give them the chance. I have nothing left but to hope Kiwi enjoyed her life nonetheless, that she felt how everyone in my home loved her. I know everyone in my house will miss her and remember her dearly.
I'm so sorry Kiwi, rest in peace and fly above the clouds.