My little boy... my little Binky... died at the vet's offices today. He fell ill a few days ago and the vet wanted to do tests. We went to visit him at the vet's yesterday and he got to play with his beloved Sweetie Pie (who is devastated without him) one more time. I would have taken him home yesterday but the vet said he wanted to do more tests. We left him there and I think his little heart broke in two seeing his family walk out that door. All my instincts were crying out to take him home to die in his home if he was going to go... but too late now. Now the vet is saying he was shocked that Binky died.
We buried our little Binky in a lovely box outside in the garden, near where we put the cage when the birds were outside. I put some of Sweetie's yellow feathers that had fallen on the floor into the box, and a eucalyptus leaf (which he always loved) and a farewell card. I have put lovely white lilies that were in the living room on his little grave. He is under a favourite flowering tree that he always liked.
He was four years old. He used to fly around the living room in our previous house with Sweetie, and climb up the feature brick wall. He and Sweetie would perch on the blinds pelmet in between flights. He had a sweet and cute personality. When we picked him out he was the runt of the cage - so cute and loveable and trying to fend off the bigger birds! I immediately wanted to take him home and have him join our family. I can't tell you how sad I am without him - and me a sixty year old woman. I should be better at this. I've lost budgies before - little Blue Boy (I still miss you Bluey!), Tweetie Pie, Cheepy and now my Binky. It is heartbreaking. Sweetie keeps looking for him out the window at every opportunity. We have bought a new companion budgie for her - just a little baby - and I hope she will recover and that our new baby boy will be happy with us here.
Oh Binky - I will never forget all the wonderful times with you! See you in heaven one day... you are finally free to fly wherever you want!
That is so sad BinkysMum...rest in peace little Blinky.
Thanks for sharing your story, and welcome to Talk Budgies...just know that you're among friends here.
You wrote that you are sixty, and should be better at this. Age makes no difference when it comes to losing and missing a loved one, in fact I think it makes us feel more vunerable...my heart goes out to you.
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Last edited by Betcherrygah; 11-18-2010 at 03:30 AM.
Thank you so much for your kind words, Susan (JellyBlue), Louara and John (Betcherrygah). It means a lot to me to have people who love budgies acknowledge my feelings and loss. Today I bought some red roses on behalf of Sweetie Pie and put them on Binky's grave. I can see them from my window next to my computer as I type this. It is important to honour Sweetie Pie's feelings too. She looks at me with such sad, questioning eyes. She keeps scanning the sky when I put the cage outside, searching for her little mate. She is snapping at our new baby budgie but hasn't attacked him seriously and he is being very cautious. She showed him how to get back into the cage when I let them out to fly in the living room today so she is making some effort to adjust I guess. I feel totally drained. I miss little Binky so much!