These last few days were rough days for kiger. He has had at least one confirmed seizure (hindsight boyfriend and i think its been 3 total,1 before we realized anything and 1 he saw but wasnt sure about). Vet thinks the tremors were a lead up to this. He is on anti seizure meds now and we also have on hand emergency meds for him if I am there when he has another seizure.
The vet and I had a long emotional (for me at least) conversation about where we go from here. We think that the stress of meds is raising his intracranial pressure, the meloxicam, when it kicks in helps bring him back to...sudo current normal. I voiced my view of how he seems to only be declining, owning that the bad days (like what he had been having) really get to me and make it tough to remember the good days. While we were going back and forth i noted how at that point in time, well after evening meds, he was his current ok. No spinning, no tremors or ticks, and he even ate millet when i gave it to him. He cant see, and his balance is off but he was ok.
It was that, his eating still, that solidified our choice. As long as he feels well enough to eat we will do all we can to give him the chance to recover or at least keep comfortable.
There is an inner struggle over that. But what wins out every time is if there is a chance he will recover i cant take that away from him. So as long as he is eating by his own free will we will do what we can to help him.
I try to think about where he has shown a hint of improvement. Since we upped the meloxicam his head tilt and circling has gotten better. Hopefully the anti seizure meds will do what they need to do and keep him safe on that front. His weight loss has slowed. He dropped another gram (29 this morning) but that was after holding at 30 since Monday. He devours millet sprigs with what i can only think is enjoyment. And he still rubs his vent on my hand given the chance. I did ask the vet if that was a red flag and she said no.
We set him up in a proper 'hospital' cage. Its a large carrier. I put hand towels on the bottom of it and then a layer of paper towels. One thing that came up with'what to do when your bird has a seizure 101', get them to a dark place. I applied that to post meds tonight. I know now what his tremors and ticks are that are warnings in a sense and med time tends to set him off a bit. I got him in his new cage and covered him, his tremors stopped and he went to sleep. Maybe thats just a one time luck thing but its worth putting to use for future med times at least. We have special meds for if im home and he has a seizure. I admit i had to laugh when my vet explained what this med makes do to them (sleepy, lethargic, even laying on their side). Its not normal budgie behavior...but basically she is telling me if he does the wierd thingd after getting these meds DONT panic, and i worded it like that to her.
-sigh- i am so greatful that she is helping me with what to do (and know how i react to all wierd behavior) even durring her non work hours.
So...yeah. kiger is in rough shape. We are just going day by day and hoping he heals. Tramatic brain injuries dont heal quickly. IF it is this (and we recognize that it might not be) it will be months before he is better. She is keeping close tabs on how he is doing (and I am sending her videos whenever i can). We recognize this maybe a fight we wont win and have a clear idea of where we draw the line. I also recognize how dangerous seizures are on their own. Know that we here at the Dodo's corner of the world are thinking this all through very carefully. We know what we are facing and it is not an easy choice to keep fighting. But like i said earlier, if there is a chance i will not take that away from him.
Thank you for the prayers and good vibes. I might go back into sporadic mode. The stress is starting to really get to me. I will be ok, i just wont likely be clicker training until i can handle it and everything else without burning out. I will update if anything major (good or bad) happens.
So sorry to hear that youíre all going through this turmoil.
Kiger is blessed to have such a knowledgeable & considerate vet working with you.
Iím sure that Kiger feels loved and the fact that he trusts you, is making this stage much easier for him to deal with.
Making a decision as to whether a petís quality of life & chance of recovery warrants euthanasia or not, is an awful decision to have to make and you have my sympathy.
Hoping and praying that Kiger shows some small sign of improvement.
Kiger has taken a dramaric downturn since late last night with an alarming number of seizures. We hope he will come out of it and eat but it is unlikely. If he continues to have seizures today we will be taking him to the emergency vet knowing that is time.
I spoke with my vet on what our (boyfriend and myself) wishes are if we take that path. I knew since UW that if it came to this we would have a necropsy done and then a cremation.
He is comming out of his sedation now so I have to go.
I'm so very sorry to read that Kiger did not recover. He had everyone rooting for him, a wonderful vet and you, all giving him the best chance possible. He certainly knew he was loved and I know he leaves you with loads of wonderful memories. My thoughts are with you at this very difficult time.